Betrayal

P came to me and cried her hearts out because she was betrayed by W. I feel for her, honestly I do feel her pain. i have been there and done that. I still remember vividly what Lim has done to me. 

I wonder if she thinks of me sometimes. She gave me nightmares all the time. My papa saw her in KL the other day and she asked for me. I guess she is just asking for the sake of asking only. I know I am mean but I could never bring myself to forgive her for what she did to me. i have been giving her too many chances and she never seems to appreciate it. How could I trust her again when she nearly get me killed?

(pondering...)

P is pouring her heart out in tears about W. She vowed that she would never trust anyone again and that she would build walls around her to protect herself. 

I feel for her. That was what i was doing ever since what Lim has done to me. She has made an impact in my life apart from Yung. 

(pondering...)

It is scary to be betrayed and it is even scarier when you do not feel loved anymore. that is exactly how I feel right now. 

I feel unwanted by my family because everybody is too busy with their own stuff. 

I feel unwanted at work because of what they have done recently. 

I feel unwanted by friends because everyone live their own lives.

I feel unwanted... sigh. 

This is pathetic! STOP!

(pondering...)

I am not happy. Many things have been going lately and I find it a little hard to "handle". Pah...

(pondering...)

Here is one of my old time favorite. "Killing me softly" by Lauryn Hill. "one time - two times.." 

I wonder where she has gone now. This song brings back loads of good memories that I have back in the Maldives. C'est magnifique! (smile) Here's to the special one... .