I am most probably seen as a pessimistic individual based on my critics and ways of looking at things. However, I must argue that I am not all that pessimistic about life. I could be VERY bright and positive about my life. You will be surprised. *grin*
There are reasons why I was being so negative. I have experience being optimist towards things and it turned out to be totally not what I anticipated. Now when that happens, it just crash me into pieces - devastated!
Imagine this, having faith in something that you are doing (being optimistic) is like climbing up the stairs say up to 10th levels. Once you reached level 10, your stairs disappeared unexpectedly and you fell down from the 10th floors. (smash!) All of your faith shattered! *tisk*
I mean why set the expectation so high when I knew I will get very upset if I don't reach my expectation. Now, being pessimistic *TO AN EXTENT* is not such a bad idea at all. Set your expectation low, if you won. Hurray! If you lost, well, life goes on because it was expected.
Anyway, back at the "happily ever after" myth. I have to be pessimistic in this case. I have been too optimist in the past and it killed me and every now and then when I get connected with the situation again, I remembered and felt the pain. NEVER EVER believe in that myth is going to come true. Well, it probably will in the movie, but not in real life, honey!
Coincidentally, "sex and the city" tonight was also talking about being optimistic about love? Charlotte has interpreted that if you believe in love and therefore receive love in return. If you do not believe in love (being pessimistic), you will never meet "love". I am not so convince with Charlotte's theory. I mean no matter how much you believe in the relationship, if the other party wants out of the relationship. You cannot do anything about it no matter how much faith you have in the relationship. Some people may comment this as a sign of low self esteem. Well, it is not!
Let me put it this way, I believe in love but not "ever after" love. How could one believe "happily ever after" love exist? To me, it is not realistic! I simply cannot comprehend how people sometimes would think that say relationship/marriage/money could make them live happily ever after. I mean, I do believe it exists, just not forever. I do not want to be skeptical about this whole love thing.*wink* I am just making the statement based on my past experience and things that I have seen around me. I may not have seen enough to judge for others. But at least I can be assured that I could judge for my own perspective.
I guess it is my own issues that are making me feeling this way. Thanks to them! I build walls around me since then... .
Oh well, there is no right and wrong answers to this, this is a subjective theory. It all comes down to individuals.
Quote: If it makes you happy, just do it or believe in it! *wink*
I wish you love...
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