Am I happy?

Conversation 1

A: How are you doing with your new job?

Me: I am not quite sure just yet. it has only been two months. (awkward)

A: Have you made that phone call? (raised his eyebrow)

Me: No, I haven't. I am sorry *guilty*

A: Nah, it is okay. Don't be sorry, it is for your own good. Well, you look happy tonight.

Me: Ha ha ha~ It is a happy occasion tonight, do you want me to show up looking sad? *wink*

A: Well yes, of course, you cannot be crying, not especially for tonight. *grin*

Me: Let's put it this way, I have not got time to think about anything lately. I kind of.....let's say, I have placed them in a box and tucked underneath my bed. Try not to look at it now. When I have my moment, I will bring them out again. 

A: It is a good sign, you are learning to handle it. 

Me: I am trying. It has not "disappeared" because I have been thinking every now and then, especially when I am by myself (when I was driving, etc). 

A: No matter what, remember to call if things got out of hand, okay? Promise me.

Me: I will. Thank you. 

A: I have been wanting to say something to you but I was worried that I might have stepped out of line.... . *ponder* This is me after a few bottle of beers. *laugh* I meant to say, maybe you should not be too hard on yourself and maybe, just maybe you need a man to get you out of it. Of course, when I say this, I do not mean by you going out there and "buy" a guy. But maybe just someone out there could help you to get out of this. 

Me: yes, I understand and I do agree with your suggestion, but like you said, I could not just go out there and get anyone. It has to be the right guy which is a little hard. Anyway, Judy and I are going out tomorrow to get laid. *laugh*

A: Good, good! Well, good luck. And I must tell you this, I am still living in denial of your leaving. *grin*

Me: ..... *smile*

Conversation 2

G: I hate you~~~ *whisper in my ears*

Me: I hate you too~~ :p

*G walked away, a few hours later he came back and hugged me*

G: I miss you. *smile*

Me: Yeah right!  *roll eyes*

G: Do you miss me? *smile*

Me: Hey, you have put on weight! *trying to change topic*

G: Yeah I put on weight because of you. I do not see you and I miss you. It has been different without you. 

Me: Awww...you are drunk! *laugh* and *sweat*

G: I love you so much and I just want you to be happy okay? *kiss my forehead*

Me: Okay, thank you.

G: Seriously, I really miss you. *hug hug*

Me: Aww.. I miss you, too. *grrr*