I have been trying so hard to build what I have now and it was all crushed into pieces. It affected my ego, it affected my self esteem and it is affecting how I feel.
However, that is still not the most pathetic things. The most pathetic thing is you have not got ONE true friend by your side telling you that it is ok. Not even one person cares. It is sad really. VERY SAD.
Of course, I have friends. Friends that I mingle with, not really friends that I could share personal feelings with. That is not it, though. What is even more sad is instead of understand you, they judge you.
The closest people to me now are my family, but there are just things you could not share with them. They look up to me so much, I could not possibly tell them that I am crushed into pieces and I have no clue how to glue them together.
Am I ever going to learn to be confident before anything happen to break them into pieces?
1 comment:
Stay strong. I know it's never easy.
It's true that somehow, we could not share everything with our family although they are the closest to us. To friends, actually it depends on how open you are towards them. Yes, of course not all friends suit you perfectly. Some might accidentally judge you instead of listening to you or understand you.
But, what I can say is, do open up yourself sometimes. Tell your problems to your friends whom you think are the closest. If they judge you, just ignore the judgment when you think it's not applicable to you. You'll not lose anything... If they understand you, it's always a bonus.
Take care there.
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