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These few weeks was completely mental for me.  A few things had happened and there are a few things will happen soon in the next few weeks. I am not sure if they are going to be good or bad, it is still early to judge. I guess it is a step that I need to take now to know if I deserved it.

I am exhausted. This time it is different, I am tired but I cannot stop. Things have to go on. I am working very hard trying to make it work, trying to prove things go the way I wanted. At least, it is within my control at this moment. 

Andrew called me into his office today and he finally asked me. I got too emotional and broke down in tears! It just proves that he might be right. I tried not to think that it is me that is causing all this but...I cannot convince that I am right. The deadline is Friday, I will have to go and get help or I just need to let it out.... .

When I am feeling uneasy, I always have this thought in my head, that is everything will be okay tomorrow. It will go away eventually. It will....

Like you'll never see me again by Alicia Keys