Triste

This is a nice song by Justin Lo. The rhythm is rather saddening.

(pondering...)

I sympathize my dad, he is still worrying about us at this age. I feel his sorrow. It reminded me of what happened back then when I saw him in tears. I could never forget that look and the pain we all felt at the time. I am glad that it was over and I would risk my life to wish that it would not happen again.  (sob sob..)

(pondering...)

I feel like a failure to not able to give him everything. I should really put more effort into it and make it happen before it is too late. I have always imagine how would I handle it if something happen to both of them. I don't think I am strong enough to face it. I almost could see myself  breakdown without their supports. I know it sounds childish but I really wish they are here with me all the time and never leave me again.

(pondering..)

I hope I really do you proud. (grin) 

(pondering...)

I am in trouble. If I do not start doing something I may end up in bigger trouble. (sad) It hit me earlier than I expected. Sigh....

(pondering....)

I was disappointed, I have worked here for almost 5 years and all i get is this? Why? I am also beginning to have doubt in myself. I was so sure at one point and it all hit me again.

I have planned this and I should not be surprised. I guess I just cannot take it when it really hit me this time and it really hit me hard. Oh well, it is not the end of the world. Life still goes on. I will just have to start all over again.

(pondering…)

I saw him yesterday, again. He said hi first. It is good to see him again. The way he looks at me made me feel comfortable. I miss him terribly. (Surprisingly!) I miss talking to him. (sigh)

I remembered that I told him if he found me one day I would go straight to him regardless of anything. he did find me and I ...escaped. I will say it here this time, if he found me again, I would.... . 

(pondering…)

What lies ahead of me? I don’t know… . It used to long straight cut road ahead of me. As I get older, my route started to change. It used to be dark and scary but then it was fixed and all okay for a couple of years and yet it is back to its old self a bit scary now. (sad)

(pondering…)

I am in my depression mode again and this song is making me cry… .  (pout)

(pondering…)

I hope everything bad will go away when I get up tomorrow. (pray~~) “Gong gong” please help me. I need your blessing. (eyes close)